Alan VanToai - May 7, 2025

I wasn’t planning on going to Mexico last week, let alone to a sold-out seven-day meditation retreat led by Dr. Joe Dispenza. But life has a way of delivering invitations at the perfect moment, and all we have to do is say yes.

✈️ The Leap: How It All Happened

On a quiet Sunday morning, my friend Kelly posted that she and her boss - my friend Ben Arneberg -had extra space in their hotel rooms for a Dispenza retreat in Playa del Carmen. They were flying out the next day.

Out of curiosity, I checked my calendar. The obligations I had that week were movable. Something in me said go. So I booked a flight on the spot, packed my bags, and flew to Mexico with Ben & Kelly the very next morning.

The retreat was technically sold out, but people often drop out at the last minute, and walk-ins are more common than you’d think. When we arrived at the resort, I walked over to the “waitlist” table, put my name down, checked into the room with Ben, and a couple hours later… I got the email. I was in.

And just like that, I found myself in one of the most transformational experiences of my life -completely unplanned.

🌀 The Experience: 7 Days in the Quantum Field

From Monday evening to Sunday afternoon, it was a deep immersion into consciousness, energy, and creation.

Over 2,000 of us from around the world gathered (2,150 to be exact). The energy was electric. Every single person was there because they’d come to understand, or were seeking to understand, that there is more to this life than meets the eye. We were explorers of consciousness, creators within reality.

Each day was a blend of lectures, seated meditations, walking meditations, and powerful group processes like coherence healings. And each experience built upon the last, creating deeper levels of awareness, stillness, openness, and connection.

⚡️ The Shift: What Changed for Me

Something fundamental shifted in me during that week.

I now feel, with clarity and embodiment, that the energy flowing through my body is real, palpable, and influenceable. I have a heightened awareness of the energy centers within me, and I’ve started to learn how to move energy with my focus, attention, and breath.

I’m more in tune with my own energy - and also more aware of the energy of people, spaces, and situations around me.

Dr. Joe taught us that the 3D world we see, touch, and experience is not the deepest level of reality. It’s a projection - a downstream effect - of pure consciousness. By accessing this upstream reality through meditation, we can send intentions and energy into the field. That, in turn, begins to shape the material world we experience.

This understanding didn’t just land intellectually. It landed viscerally.

🌬 The Power of Coherence Healing

One of the most powerful moments for me was participating in something called a Coherence Healing.

Groups of five to eight gather around a “healee” - a person with a physical or emotional ailment -and direct coherent heart-brain energy into their field. No one in the group knows what the person’s story or condition is. You just drop into presence, into love, and become a conduit for healing energy.

In my first healing group, I later found out the woman we worked on had breast cancer. She had refused chemotherapy and radiation treatment, choosing instead to attend this meditation retreat. During our coherence healing, with her eye mask on, she said she immediately felt a tension and heat in the area where her tumor was. She described a pressure and then a dissolving sensation, and in that moment, she knew something had shifted. She believed the cancer was retreating.

After the session, she expressed profound gratitude. She took time to give each of us a heartfelt, individualized acknowledgement - hugs, eye contact, words of appreciation, and tears. Lots and lots of tears. When she got to me, she said something that blew me away.

She told me that with her eye mask on, she could feel each of our energies individually. There were six of us - two on her left and four on her right - and she said she could sense where we each were positioned. She noted how the energy on her right side (my side) felt denser and more concentrated. Even without sight, she said she could feel who we were, energetically, and felt like she got a sense of us as individuals, before ever taking off her mask.

That experience shattered my assumptions. It pushed the boundaries of what I thought was possible - about energy, healing, and consciousness. The emotion in the room was overwhelming. We were all in tears. It was real, it was raw, and it was profound.

🧠 A Word on Dr. Joe Himself

Dr. Joe Dispenza is a master of his craft. He held space for over 2,000 people, guiding us through quantum physics, consciousness, neuroscience, and personal transformation with clarity, humor, and immense heart.

He’s not just a teacher - he’s a force of nature. He’s doing his dharma, fully in service to humanity’s awakening. I walked away from this experience with deep admiration, respect, and love for him.

🛤 What’s Next

This retreat opened a door. I now feel more connected to my power, to the field, and to something greater than myself. I’m no longer just “meditating” — I’m tapping into the quantum, into the true creative force of reality.

And I know I’ve only just scratched the surface.

If you’ve ever felt curious about your potential… about energy… about the nature of consciousness… or what it means to truly be the creator of your life - I can’t recommend this experience enough.

Say yes. Go. Explore. There’s more to reality than meets the eye - and far more to you than you’ve ever imagined.

My Takeaways

1. Nature of Reality & Consciousness

• Reality as we perceive it is just the tip of the iceberg. A projection of consciousness.
• The 3D/material world is downstream of the quantum field & pure consciousness.
• Consciousness is non-local, infinite, timeless - the totality beyond space and time.
• Our senses access only 0.0001% of all available frequencies.
• We are more information than matter - energetic beings first, physical second.

2. Identity, Time & Multi-Dimensionality

• We are dimensional beings, not just linear ones.
• There are infinite possible timelines in the quantum field.
• When we return from meditation, we re-enter new bodies in new timelines.
• We are the creators of our reality. We are source.
• “There’s more to you than you’ve ever thought.”
• “There’s more to reality than meets the eye” (and I now I’m beginning to understand that a little more)

3. Accessing the Field

• This unique form of meditation is a gateway to pure consciousness and the universal field.
• The pineal gland acts as a tuner allowing access to the “field” of universal information.
• In deep meditative states, we can send and receive information beyond space and time.
• This field contains infinite creative potential, intuition, and insight.

4. Thought, Emotion & Manifestation

• Every thought and emotion carries a frequency that influences the material world.
• Intention (thought) + elevated emotion = manifest destiny.
• Our emotions shape our neurochemistry, literally creating who we are.
• We can consciously generate new internal states to create new versions of ourselves.

5. Energy, Healing & Human Potential

• Focused attention directs energy through the 7 centers of the body.
• “Where attention goes, energy flows” — unlocking higher states of being.
• This practice activates healing, creativity, connection, love, and intuition.
• The human body has the innate capacity to heal itself, at any age.
• Physical ailments are downstream of our energetic field — change the field, change the body.

My Personal Integration

• Practices
• Deepening relationship & integration with “the field”
• Mastering “The Breath”
• Move energy through my system (particularly 4 > 6> field)
• Manifesting intentions
• Being, “Walking as the mystic”
• Daily (M-F) meditations
• Join local coherence healing group & local Dispenza groups.
• Appreciate & practice the power of our intentions and thoughts to shape realities in ways beyond material comprehension.
• Will be attending more workshops to deepen in practice and understanding.